❤️

Having a lot in my mind, still I want to say

I LOVE YOU ❤️❤️❤️

I wouldn’t expect this.

I definitely wouldn’t expect this after all these days.

So, this the reason behind everything.

All the lies with secret relationship with him. Go on then, I am asking again to be mine. People tends to go there, wherever they feel comfortable.

This was supposed to be the ultimate destiny of you.

All the hide and seek for all these days.

People tend to hind their bigger faults by convicting others of their smaller faults. And I know you are the best at doing that. Anyway, best wishes for your upcoming days.

Isn’t it interesting?

I wish you don’t come here check any day, this is just a personal talking.

Nights are horrible again

I don’t know how I will pass some future days of my life. Right now my life‘s became horrible. I have been having a bad dream for the last two weeks. And it Makes me intimidated when I comes. I wait for every second until morning to finish my nights. every night why you were coming in my dream, I can’t figure out.

I don’t know how to dance or when it ends. And I don’t know what is going to happen in my future life.

No Time to Die…

I should’ve known
I’d leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed
Is just the blood you owe

We were a pair
But I saw you there
Too much to bear
You were my life
But life is far away from fair

I still love you

Honey,

I still love you. I love you, I want to tell you everyday every moment that I love you.

You are my only love, You are the only person I loved in my life, and I truly believe that I cann’t love anyone like you ever if I even try for it.

What’s irony is that I filled my love with poison or it becomes poisonous for some reasons. After all these 9 years of our life, now it made me think that may be we are not destined together until the end of our life.

I cannot bear the fear of sudden destruction of our relation anytime anymore. Our relation got ages but it didn’t learn to stay together. All it faces until today is honey which tastes bitter. It is so fragile that we cannot even rely on it any moment. I am extremely terrified all the time that something will happen and I have to face a major blast, this is not life.

I had never think of losing you, whatever the situation came before me, I never said that I will sacrifice you from me. But, here me thinking that we should be separated. We are not destined together. I want to stand by my own where I am not intimidated anymore of sudden destruction of life on any moment.

But it’s true that, I love you.

I was not a person ever who has bad dreams at night rather having a sound sleep. But time changes so quickly. I have been dreaming every night of you. You have mixed completely with my blood.

I checked your all activity every moment like a psycho. I don’t know why.

21 days have since I talk with you normally, it’s killing me inside. There is no one around me to share the pain inside me. It’s burning inside continuously.

I cannot plan my future without you. Whenever I tried to plan for my future, it seems pointless without you. I don’t know what’s coming in my future.

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I love youuuuuuu.

Starting of Oct, Preparing for IELTS

Yah, it’s the starting of Oct, 2020.

I am preparing seriously for IELTS from the last couple of weeks. My target is to get it completed by the end of November by any means. It’s not an easy job for me as my expected band score is 8-7-7-7.

In the last month, I met with Adnan after a long time like 4-5 years and sharing about my plan of migrating to Canada and he also shared his same planning with me. So, it became our common goal from that time. We were preparing for IELTS together. But from the first of October Adnan seems to avoiding me. So, I’m all alone preparing my IELTS specially when writing and speaking need some serious partners.

Yesterday, my plan was to send my ECA documents to Canada, but I feel so exhausted that I couldn’t make it. But Maya showed me a very bad attitude for that. She also said, she actually don’t want to stay with me. She requested me to leave her. I am not sure how long can I tolerate the same sentence again and again. A relation can never be one sighted. She also sort of ordered me to go through GIC while processing our documents for CANADA.

So I am thinking about it from the morning when I sit for study. This is actually good to go through GIC, I don’t have any problem with it. All I wanted is to save some money. But doing things by my own will give me a lot of responsibilities and pressures too, specially when there is someone always to talk about my steps. So, I changed my mind also.

I restarted this blog writing after a long long time. Hope this writing will help me develop my writing skill at least a bit. And it’s always good to read back my my own writing after 7 or 10 years later.

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